The Library and chapters, and spent some of my gift card money on books.
Chapters didn't have their paperback sale in Dec. this year.
They usually have one twice a year, buy 3 get 4th free.
I'd been stockpiling titles waiting for the sale.
Broke down today and bought 5 books, all the next in series I've been waiting for
that the library doesn't have.
As I was walking home, a cyclist wasn't paying attention and clipped me.
no harm done, banged into right shoulder and hip, but I stayed on my feet.
Yay, me.
G'nite
Wednesday, 2 February 2011
Tuesday, 1 February 2011
"WHITE RABBITS"----I remembered.
When I was a youngster, my Dad would run from room to room waking us up and whispering, say "white rabbits" say white rabbits...... and groggily I would respond.
My Dad told us that saying White Rabbits first thing (before uttering any other syllable) on the first day of a new month meant you received good luck for that month.
Soooo....Today I remembered, to say it before I said anything else.
Ahhhhh, see Ahhh instead of Argh....,
Today I changed this one small thing.
Tomorrow is a new day.
That's my story, and I'm sticking to it.
And now I will channel Scarlett O'Hara, " After all, tomorrow is another day"
G'nite
My Dad told us that saying White Rabbits first thing (before uttering any other syllable) on the first day of a new month meant you received good luck for that month.
Soooo....Today I remembered, to say it before I said anything else.
Ahhhhh, see Ahhh instead of Argh....,
Today I changed this one small thing.
Tomorrow is a new day.
That's my story, and I'm sticking to it.
And now I will channel Scarlett O'Hara, " After all, tomorrow is another day"
G'nite
Monday, 31 January 2011
arghhh.....Yup that pretty much sums it up
First some food/nutrition info
There's a supplement by NewChapter---Lycopom--100gm of tomatoes & 13 pomegranates.
Promotes cardiovascular, breast and prostate health.
It's a good thing.
Something I read lately--------in Alive Magazine---
Talk, talk, talk: Intimate connection requires patience, risk-taking, and a willingness to talk about those things you'd rather leave buried and forgotten.
Talking about depression--- the trials and tribulations, to people who do not suffer from this illness and have no frame of reference for this journey is difficult, extremely difficult...
When it is people you love, it feels like you are burdening them with your crap, a whiner, I hate whiners, and I hate whining.........Soooo you can only imagine how it feels to be one.
Learning to be patient and gentle with myself is an everyday challenge.
Even though when I finally write one of these blogs entries I feel lightened somehow.....
Almost like letting the air out of a balloon, metaphorically speaking, of course....
It is difficult to get myself to sit down and write another one.
Because it feels like whining.
Until I am acutally at the keyboard, and then it feels like a release.
Something else I have read lately, Deepak Chopra's---Re-inventing the Body, Resurrecting the Soul---
As Chopra identifies it, soul carries our potential for wellness, mind carries the intention, while brain produces the result.
Above all, Chopra teaches "the process of reinventing the body and resurrecting the soul is a journey, and the journey never ends."
Something I will chew on for a while before it settles into my opinion, or maybe my interpretation is a better way to express it.
I guess that's it for today.....
Gonna try and share something everday for February and see if I can change something myself.
Soooo..........later.....Ummm tomorrow......ummm.........argh.........
There's a supplement by NewChapter---Lycopom--100gm of tomatoes & 13 pomegranates.
Promotes cardiovascular, breast and prostate health.
It's a good thing.
Something I read lately--------in Alive Magazine---
Talk, talk, talk: Intimate connection requires patience, risk-taking, and a willingness to talk about those things you'd rather leave buried and forgotten.
Talking about depression--- the trials and tribulations, to people who do not suffer from this illness and have no frame of reference for this journey is difficult, extremely difficult...
When it is people you love, it feels like you are burdening them with your crap, a whiner, I hate whiners, and I hate whining.........Soooo you can only imagine how it feels to be one.
Learning to be patient and gentle with myself is an everyday challenge.
Even though when I finally write one of these blogs entries I feel lightened somehow.....
Almost like letting the air out of a balloon, metaphorically speaking, of course....
It is difficult to get myself to sit down and write another one.
Because it feels like whining.
Until I am acutally at the keyboard, and then it feels like a release.
Something else I have read lately, Deepak Chopra's---Re-inventing the Body, Resurrecting the Soul---
As Chopra identifies it, soul carries our potential for wellness, mind carries the intention, while brain produces the result.
Above all, Chopra teaches "the process of reinventing the body and resurrecting the soul is a journey, and the journey never ends."
Something I will chew on for a while before it settles into my opinion, or maybe my interpretation is a better way to express it.
I guess that's it for today.....
Gonna try and share something everday for February and see if I can change something myself.
Soooo..........later.....Ummm tomorrow......ummm.........argh.........
Monday, 29 November 2010
Deep Thoughts--What I believe about Love--Spirit--Faith.......
I haven't blogged for a verra long time. For a variety of reasons, and at this moment as I feel compelled to write, none of the reasons feel like good ones.
They say insanity is doing the same thing and expecting a different result.
Well I have hidden my pain and suffering for many years.
I feel overwhelming shame and humiliation that I have not conquered this illness and returned to gainful employment.
For short periods of time I can subdue these thoughts/feelings with exercise, proper nutrition, and yoga/meditation.
There are times where My mind/body/spirit feel so heavily burdened it feels impossible to move.
I have small cognitive steps that I use,such as, if I think a negative thought 3 times I have to physically change my position because you require a different part of your brain to engage the physical.
Having said this, these days the burden feels heavier, thicker somehow. Like moving through jello for every thought.
Partly this is the time of year and the darkness, and my frustration with this cycle of darkness.
I must not get lost, and I want to be more aware of the masques I use to camouflage all of me.
There that's some shit that was just rolling around in there, now it is out there.
Sooooo Here's the thoughts about love.
I had a long discussion recently about love in all it's many facets.
I grew up believing love was something bartered for with chores well done, good grades, proper behaviour and all that jazz.
Now I think I was always loved, and being liked was what was being bartered for.
I'm not sure I can tell the difference. I am working on it.
I have always had this big personality, glib tongue, and an affinity for dark wit and black humour.
I think the wit and the humour are survival mechanisms.
Good ones I think, because laughing is always better than wailing.
My first experience with being loved warts and all was when I met my Phenix cousins as adults.
I found the connection and grounding I hadn't experienced since my Dad had shuffled from this mortal coil.
i have been learning how to love myself warts and all, a verra difficult task for whatever cosmic reason.
I have always been able to make myself feel better when life is not about me. when I can do, or be, for others somehow it taps a part of my psyche that functions better in crises than in the routine.
I think I feel more functional when I open the window in my brain that copes with crisis well.
I feel better about myself.
This however is unsustainable. this is my perennial conundrum.
Sooooo How about this---We open a dialogue about Love and how we cope and share it with each other.
Let me know what y'all think. I know it's a busy time of year, it doesn't have to happen now.
Now is good, but it's the sharing that matters.
hugsmar
They say insanity is doing the same thing and expecting a different result.
Well I have hidden my pain and suffering for many years.
I feel overwhelming shame and humiliation that I have not conquered this illness and returned to gainful employment.
For short periods of time I can subdue these thoughts/feelings with exercise, proper nutrition, and yoga/meditation.
There are times where My mind/body/spirit feel so heavily burdened it feels impossible to move.
I have small cognitive steps that I use,such as, if I think a negative thought 3 times I have to physically change my position because you require a different part of your brain to engage the physical.
Having said this, these days the burden feels heavier, thicker somehow. Like moving through jello for every thought.
Partly this is the time of year and the darkness, and my frustration with this cycle of darkness.
I must not get lost, and I want to be more aware of the masques I use to camouflage all of me.
There that's some shit that was just rolling around in there, now it is out there.
Sooooo Here's the thoughts about love.
I had a long discussion recently about love in all it's many facets.
I grew up believing love was something bartered for with chores well done, good grades, proper behaviour and all that jazz.
Now I think I was always loved, and being liked was what was being bartered for.
I'm not sure I can tell the difference. I am working on it.
I have always had this big personality, glib tongue, and an affinity for dark wit and black humour.
I think the wit and the humour are survival mechanisms.
Good ones I think, because laughing is always better than wailing.
My first experience with being loved warts and all was when I met my Phenix cousins as adults.
I found the connection and grounding I hadn't experienced since my Dad had shuffled from this mortal coil.
i have been learning how to love myself warts and all, a verra difficult task for whatever cosmic reason.
I have always been able to make myself feel better when life is not about me. when I can do, or be, for others somehow it taps a part of my psyche that functions better in crises than in the routine.
I think I feel more functional when I open the window in my brain that copes with crisis well.
I feel better about myself.
This however is unsustainable. this is my perennial conundrum.
Sooooo How about this---We open a dialogue about Love and how we cope and share it with each other.
Let me know what y'all think. I know it's a busy time of year, it doesn't have to happen now.
Now is good, but it's the sharing that matters.
hugsmar
Sunday, 26 September 2010
trepidations, falters, rewrites.......bugger it , all of it.
I have a great article on how to starve cancer cells I saw on the Dr. Oz show.
I haven't shared it b/c I didn't want to talk about moi.
and my deal with myself is when I blog I have to share some of me.
Sooooo....ick....here I go
5 Foods to Starve cancer--angiogenesis (Dr. William Lee)
food is a medicine we take every day.---stop bad blood vessels from feeding cancer tissue
Bok choy---contains boracinin---1/2 cup X 3 per week
Cooked tomatoes---lycopene----2-3 cups per week--heat in evoo=makes molecules more available to body
Flounder----mild white fish--omega 3--anti-angiogenic----3 X 6oz per week
strawberries---elogic acid in seed and pulp---antioxidant and anti-angiogenic
Artichokes--3 different anti-angiogenic molecules--1/4 cup artichoke per day
As for Moi---- conflicted on many fronts, will elaborate more when i am not locking down my mind to contain anxiety.
I have a minor surgical procedure tomorrow--Hysterotomy-- they will remove 5 mm of uterine wall and 2 adenomanous polyps.
All being well I will be home by 14oohrs, my friend Lori is picking me up.
That's it folks
hugsmar
I haven't shared it b/c I didn't want to talk about moi.
and my deal with myself is when I blog I have to share some of me.
Sooooo....ick....here I go
5 Foods to Starve cancer--angiogenesis (Dr. William Lee)
food is a medicine we take every day.---stop bad blood vessels from feeding cancer tissue
Bok choy---contains boracinin---1/2 cup X 3 per week
Cooked tomatoes---lycopene----2-3 cups per week--heat in evoo=makes molecules more available to body
Flounder----mild white fish--omega 3--anti-angiogenic----3 X 6oz per week
strawberries---elogic acid in seed and pulp---antioxidant and anti-angiogenic
Artichokes--3 different anti-angiogenic molecules--1/4 cup artichoke per day
As for Moi---- conflicted on many fronts, will elaborate more when i am not locking down my mind to contain anxiety.
I have a minor surgical procedure tomorrow--Hysterotomy-- they will remove 5 mm of uterine wall and 2 adenomanous polyps.
All being well I will be home by 14oohrs, my friend Lori is picking me up.
That's it folks
hugsmar
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