Laughter is the best medicine......

No Wonder those old axioms last through the ages.

Crappy Day, but played Jeopardy with Mutti.
We managed to share our misery, and the burden feels manageable.

Sometime when the anxiety that accompanies clinical depression does
not respond to any of my attempts to tame it, it feels overwhelming.

The good news is I now know after all these long years that even if
I don't believe it right now, this will lift.
Time has taught me that.

I've been way worse than this.
Soo....
Thinkin' of the things I am grateful for.
Family that I love---Cuz Linda is home and a walking miracle----
I am sound of body, and the darkness will lift.

G'nite

Healthy Expression........I read about it.....

In the December issue of Alive magazine---an article on Healthy Expression

Recently, people with health problems have been turning to expressive writing as a way to meditate and become more aware of their body.

In the past few decades, researchers have delved into the benefits of writing, and a bulk of scientific literature supports the benefits of releasing thoughts onto the page.

Pychologists found that regular expressive writing resulted in better working memory, improved
social skills, and relief from anxiety and depression.

Here we go..........
crappy day, dark grey, rainy, not too cold, felt dopey, down, and anxious all day.

Not much sleep last nite.

Almost makes me not want to go to bed tonite.

so, hot shower, some yoga and breathing meditation....and to bed with a book.

G'nite

Warmer outside today.....so dragged my ass out to .......

The Library and chapters, and spent some of my gift card money on books.
Chapters didn't have their paperback sale in Dec. this year.

They usually have one twice a year, buy 3 get 4th free.
I'd been stockpiling titles waiting for the sale.

Broke down today and bought 5 books, all the next in series I've been waiting for
that the library doesn't have.

As I was walking home, a cyclist wasn't paying attention and clipped me.
no harm done, banged into right shoulder and hip, but I stayed on my feet.

Yay, me.

G'nite

"WHITE RABBITS"----I remembered.

When I was a youngster, my Dad would run from room to room waking us up and whispering, say "white rabbits" say white rabbits...... and groggily I would respond.

My Dad told us that saying White Rabbits first thing (before uttering any other syllable) on the first day of a new month meant you received good luck for that month.

Soooo....Today I remembered, to say it before I said anything else.

Ahhhhh, see Ahhh instead of Argh....,

Today I changed this one small thing.

Tomorrow is a new day.

That's my story, and I'm sticking to it.

And now I will channel Scarlett O'Hara, " After all, tomorrow is another day"

G'nite

arghhh.....Yup that pretty much sums it up

First some food/nutrition info

There's a supplement by NewChapter---Lycopom--100gm of tomatoes & 13 pomegranates.
Promotes cardiovascular, breast and prostate health.
It's a good thing.

Something I read lately--------in Alive Magazine---

Talk, talk, talk: Intimate connection requires patience, risk-taking, and a willingness to talk about those things you'd rather leave buried and forgotten.

Talking about depression--- the trials and tribulations, to people who do not suffer from this illness and have no frame of reference for this journey is difficult, extremely difficult...

When it is people you love, it feels like you are burdening them with your crap, a whiner, I hate whiners, and I hate whining.........Soooo you can only imagine how it feels to be one.
Learning to be patient and gentle with myself is an everyday challenge.

Even though when I finally write one of these blogs entries I feel lightened somehow.....
Almost like letting the air out of a balloon, metaphorically speaking, of course....

It is difficult to get myself to sit down and write another one.
Because it feels like whining.
Until I am acutally at the keyboard, and then it feels like a release.


Something else I have read lately, Deepak Chopra's---Re-inventing the Body, Resurrecting the Soul---

As Chopra identifies it, soul carries our potential for wellness, mind carries the intention, while brain produces the result.
Above all, Chopra teaches "the process of reinventing the body and resurrecting the soul is a journey, and the journey never ends."

Something I will chew on for a while before it settles into my opinion, or maybe my interpretation is a better way to express it.

I guess that's it for today.....
Gonna try and share something everday for February and see if I can change something myself.
Soooo..........later.....Ummm tomorrow......ummm.........argh.........